What am i looking for?

i always knew what it was i wanted to do, how to live, what my future would be. soon i'll be 51. things changed. i have to reinvent myself and i'm not sure what it is i want for me. i know, what i don't want. i seem to be stuck. mostly because of unfinished business. another blog of that. so right now, i'm just in survival mode. i really do need to push forward...